11.35 pm / daily life · writing

I had work experience these two past weeks, which I spent at the kindergarten and at a school. I really enjoyed both, especially the kindergarten. The kids were so adorable and being around them made me so so happy. I was really exhausted after the 6 hours I was there every day, but so happy.

My days started at 8 a.m. and ended around 2 p.m. We were outside one and a half hours a day, and most of the time I played with the kids and oh my god they were so energetic. It was a lot of running and yelling, but I actually really enjoyed it, I haven't done that stuff in years. 

not my pictures. source one / two

I was at a school the second week, grades one to six, ages 7 to 12. I got to choose what classes I was in, unless a teacher needed my help. There was a class with both 3rd and 4th graders and I think I was with them the most. The first graders were really adorable, they're still so young and they didn't really know yet what school actually is about. I got to help the kids with maths, which I actually thought I wouldn't be able to do, but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, haha.

What made me upset was hearing some of the kids conversations, what even has happened to the world? How do these small kids know and talk about all that stuff - why do they know about it - they're 11, why is this acceptable?

I've for years wanted to work with kids, either as a teacher or at a kindergarten, and to be honest this didn't make it easier for me to decide anything. I mean, just because I enjoyed the kindergarten better doesn't mean I would rather work there. I'M JUST A 16 YEAR OLD GIRL WHY DO I HAVE TO DECIDE THIS STUFF ALREADY.


01.57 pm /

let's focus on the positive things

10.25 pm / personal

Life isn't always easy. We're all gonna have a bad day sometimes, when nothing feels right and you just want to disappear. Today is one of those days for me. That's when we're supposed to focus on the positive things, even if it feels like there isn't any. Trust me, there is. 
+ I went to Helsinki yesterday.
+ I bought some new stuff, including a scarf, nail polish remover and a concealer. 
+ I saw Niko Saarinen in the store, who was super nice. (People who know me irl knows that I absolutely love him!!!, he's known from Finland's Big Brother and other tv shows) (He was working and I was there with my mum, who made fun of me for being a bit excited, so I didn't take a picture or anything.) 

+ I have work experience next week and the week after that, which means I don't have school for two weeks.
+ It's Christmas soon.
+ I'm seeing my friends this weekend, who I haven't seen in ages. 

Monthly favourites - October / Music edition

03.05 pm / favourites · music & concerts

I have a new favourite artist, Lorde. I just absolutely love her voice and songs, and she's only 16 years old??? I love all of her songs from her debut album Pure Heroin, but if I have to choose a favourite it's probably Royals, Team and Tennis Court. Click on the song names for youtube links and here to find the album on Spotify. 

Other songs I've listened to a lot this month are..